Possibly the last moments

We are not sure if it is going to happen tonight, but a lot of the signs are showing that Ms. Vincent will not make it through the night. The entire family, well, my wife, her sister and father are all coming to the Hospital for the night. The nurses have pulled in some cots and we are all sitting and waiting.

For most of the day Ms. Vincent has been in a deep sleep, but about 7 this evening she began to wake up and call for different people. She has been telling us things she wants us to write down to tell other people. Then she started calling for her husband.

At one point she began discussing her funeral and what she wants to happen. Stacy has been writing down every word. During one portion of that topic she had an amazing moment if clarity. She raised her hands and with the loudest voice I have heard from her in a long time she proclaimed, “during this I will be shouting this is the day that the Lord has made and I will rejoice and be glad in it, cause I will be with the Lord”. Then she closed her eyes for a second and started talking in that slow quiet mumble voice again.

In these situations, like most, I usually think of my mortality, of how fragile I am and how quickly things can change or be over. This time, I found myself thanking God for my clarity, for my knowledge of where I am going and I can only hope that some of my last words are praises to him.